Time of the month

I am feeling the blues since past few days not sure why. It’s easy to blame the time of the month,If you know then you know. 

I have started disliking going on Instagram or Facebook, I feel so underachieved in so many segments of life. I know it’s mostly like because I haven’t painted in a while and this most likely a painting deprived anxiety. 

Do you ever experience that or a similar anxiety? 

It’s also reduction in self reflect time that creates this for me.Even though there are millions of ideas floating by in terms of creating with Keanu, tidying the house, organizing my admin pile of work and spending time with Cesco or myself, I feel energy deprived…. Inspired yet demotivated, found but lost, among my own but still alone, Will to move but not strong enough to step forward. 

At the end it’s a phase isn’t it?! I am just in my resting phase maybe? 

An artwork of tea cosy I did forlegion experience museumI as part of a diorama. I feel like that teapot right now, want to hide and be all cosy and protected. 

Loud thinking

Notes to Myself- by Hugh Prather left a big mark on me not sure what about it? Am not even sure it was the book or my sister’s trust in my weird sensibilities that encouraged me to read n get to love this book. Many moons back my sister while studying in uni got me this book, inside it there was a note by her  ‘I didn’t understand it but I know you will’ 

Anyways if you haven’t had a chance to come across this book, this what I found online that best describes it- ‘The book serves as a beginning for the reader's exploration of his or her own life and as a treasury of thoughtful and insightful reminders.’  

The simplicity of the words,  the insights shared feel they are shared as not really to inspire but they are truly genuinely meant as a loud thought.  I love the tag line too- my struggles to be a person. 
I felt a kinship with the words, as I haven’t shared this much before when I was young I used to write poems : my writing that time and I still feel is as if I am just typing my loud thoughts. They make sense in my head, these also make sense randomly but at the same time these also feel vague and simple. 
So why all this about the book, you may ask ( if somebody is actually reading this)? Well mainly to say I am planning to start it again and share my thoughts here… notes to myself these might be helpful to some or one. Who knows?! But I need to do this for myself definetly to help clear my head and understand myself more as part of my this year resolution. 
If you have read the book let me know or if are planning to let me know what you think once you read it! 

010 week 1 stop animation and stickers dinosaurs

Week 1 progress - Keanu made some stickers which we are still waiting to receive.  The stickers are drawings of different dinosaurs.  

And Keanu also made his space movie 2 with few words and special effects. You can watch it below. 

O1O

Keanu has decided to start a business, we are starting with this blog to announce it. 

‘O1O’ is the name of the shop/ brand - which means over 1 object a week. 

We have various ideas what we could make and sell so we will be taking it as a weekly project.

He is starting grade 1 this year so he will be pretty busy but he is sure he can focus on this as well as his playing and studying. 

Watch this space for more updates

Keanu Bori

Painting 365

Eek! Am doing it and no going back!! 

Painting365 starts in 22 days!!! On March 8th  I will officially start painting, posting, listing, and selling one painting every day. These paintings will be sold on my etsy shop for the dollar amount of the day (for example, on day 13,the painting will cost $13). To start with the paper size would be roughly 6” x 6” with medium gouache/ watercolours. 

This is inspired by Emily Jeffords who did this few years back, am doing it so that I get into habit of posting my artworks to sell on my site rather than me just hoarding them and not letting them go. This is also to celebrate a big bday for myself. 

Would you like a painting for yourself?? I would love to paint a painting specifically for you it for your loved one! Send me a photograph of one of your beautiful memories/ keepsake, and I will paint it!  

Chanda Mama

Indian lullaby of Chanda mama and memories  Of growing up in India

 Bushy Eyebrows, my retro jumper and Chanda Mama 

Created part of the #drawthisinyourstyle challenge by @littleyellowgherkin at insta. Indian lullaby ‘Chanda mama’cradle, me enjoying my bounrvita milk in my retro jumper, I really Love that jumper and wish we still had it…. I would look so cool n retro!!! 

Created in procreate

Sabotaging Myself

"Self-sabotage refers to behaviours or thought patterns that hold you back and prevent you from doing what you want to do." 

How many times have you done this? I have done it plenty, I did it this morning and few minutes back, thats the reason of m writing this post. Not saying am proud of it on the contrary I am sharing this to bring a change in my daily tasks. 

me preparing new surface to paint

 

I usually hold myself responsible for many things but I never take the responsibility of being my worst critic.I can easily motivate people I love motivating fellow creatives but the struggle to keep a vision for myself gets lost quite easily. Yes I have achieved many things but I have also pulled my foot backwards from stepping towards my dream. If you do it to or did in past how did you come out of it? Did you know The most common self-sabotaging behaviours include procrastination

After recommendations from my sister (my Mentor /Coach) i have started reading to Psycho cybernetics and also started practising Silva Method, these practices have made me realize one major thing among many - we need to be aware of our limiting beliefs, our fears and then move on. As we move on, staying aware of the patterns we push ourselves into...the things that show up over and over again we can tackle them much easily. My biggest sabotage pattern is whenever I decide of a big goal instead of working on it or writing it down I will do everything else. Small jobs will start appearing in front of me - small design projects thats show me money flowing in or has urgent requirements, then housework or the family or internet! 

My Now Tactic - 

1) Write down my goals not only my daily tasks - Read my long term goal, mid terms goals and short term goals.

2) Five mins -15 mins relax , mediate , go for walk alone

3) B aware when a task comes in -how urgently does it need my attention? and why is it urgent? Only do the task till after I have completed something from my to do list that will take me a step closer to my dream. 

4) Say/ appreciate myself/ compliment myself be a small task or big or even if its a i made good tea! or i look nice

I am over all going to be aware why am i don't what am doing!  Please share with me if you found a way to deal with self sabotage.